Chapter 46

Summary

• Evelyn is reflecting on a controversial movie that she acted in, which despite being a hit and winning her co-star an Oscar, did not earn her a nomination due to its explicit nature and the scandal it caused.
• She describes how the scandal did not hurt her career and she continued to deliver successful performances, but she feels she was unfairly stigmatised.
• Evelyn notes that the movie led to the breakdown of her relationship with Celia, but capitulates that she was at fault for not discussing the explicit scenes in the movie with Celia beforehand.
• The discussion turns to Evelyn's bisexuality and whether it strained her relationship with Celia. Evelyn firmly asserts that it was not her bisexuality, but her selfish desire for fame that put a strain on their relationship.
• She reveals she would use sex to get what she wanted professionally, but insists that she never cheated on Celia or shared her true self with anyone but her.
• Evelyn confesses to sleeping with other men to protect her career or make certain creative decisions in movies and understands these actions hurt Celia deeply.
• Despite acknowledging her wrongdoings, she states that Celia also had her cruel moments, but maintained a balance of good and bad, something Evelyn failed to do.
• Evelyn makes it clear that she is not a good person and has hurt a lot of people for her own gain, insisting that this aspect of her character should be accurately represented in the writing.
• The chapter ends with Evelyn ominously warning the narrator that she will soon change her mind about Evelyn's character.