Chapter 41

Summary

• Yara struggles not to confront Fadi upon his return, instead going upstairs to distract herself with her daughters' bedtime stories.
• She eats dinner with Fadi in silence, cooking him bazella, but feels too upset to eat it herself while distractedly watching Law & Order.
• Fadi notices Yara's quiet demeanor and asks if everything is fine; Yara, knowing he spoke with her father, questions whether to bring it up.
• After Fadi falls asleep, Yara goes to brush her teeth but feels nauseous, hating her reflection and pondering her resemblance to her unhappy mother.
• Yara eventually initiates a conversation about her father calling her, accuses Fadi of involving him without her consent, and questions if Fadi truly cares for her.
• The couple discusses their relationship; Yara feels they lack a genuine connection and are merely going through the motions of marriage.
• Fadi defends their relationship, stating they chose to marry each other, but Yara believes they didn't really know each other.
• Yara expresses her desire to feel more connected to Fadi and suggests spending time together during the day, but Fadi dismisses the idea due to work commitments.
• Overwhelmed by the distance in their relationship and her own emotions, Yara starts crying, leading Fadi to mention that this is why he involved her father.
• Fadi gets frustrated with Yara's perceived tendency to blame their marriage for her issues and suggests that her problems stem from her past and family.
• He ends the conversation, critical of Yara, who then questions her self-worth and reflects on her life's efforts to escape the feeling of being a bad person.
• The chapter concludes with Yara trying to find clarity amid her thoughts and the background of the rain, feeling the weight of her internal conflict.