Chapter 39

Summary

• Yara experiences a profound shift in perspective, feeling trapped and unequal to her husband, Fadi, in terms of freedom and choices.
• During an episode of "Everybody Loves Raymond," Yara is shaken while Fadi finds humor in the show's exploration of gender roles.
• After Fadi leaves for Vegas, Yara cleans the house to perfection, but realizes that her external accomplishments can't ease her inner sense of unworthiness.
• She struggles to engage with her daughters, Mira and Jude, feeling disconnected from them and overwhelmed by household responsibilities.
• Fadi texts Yara, requesting she make bamya for dinner upon his return, but Yara ignores his request and instead spends time with her daughters, feeling nauseated by the sight of them watching TV.
• Yara goes to bed early, dismissing Fadi's text questioning why she didn't stay up to greet him; she resents their unequal freedoms.
• When Fadi returns and asks about dinner, Yara reads a book and responds that she hasn't cooked, challenging the household expectations placed upon her.
• Fadi confronts Yara about her unusual behavior and the messy house, but Yara expresses her fatigue with him and their relationship.
• While Fadi showers, Yara reflects on their relationship and her diminishing self-worth; she returns to her painting instead of joining him.
• As Yara paints, she realizes she cannot become the person she aspires to be if she stays with Fadi, confronting the limitations he imposes on her as a wife and mother.
• Yara begins to establish a personal vision for her future, listing ambitions and dreams without restrictions, aiming to break free from her confined existence.