Chapter 53
Summary
- Yara is anxious on her way to Esther's office, feeling tempted to turn back but proceeds despite her hesitation.
- She arrives at the office and observes birds flying together outside while waiting for her appointment.
- In the session with Esther, Yara admits that her husband Fadi's job loss wasn't her fault as she previously thought.
- She acknowledges lying to herself and ignoring her intuition about the strained relationship with Fadi.
- Yara discusses the negative internal dialogue she has been combating, including insecurities and fears influenced by her mother and others.
- She realizes she is not the critical voice in her head and contemplates the possibility that the voice could be wrong.
- Yara is moved to tears by the thought that she might not be as flawed as she believed and that she didn't deserve the negative events in her life.
- Esther reassures Yara that she doesn't have to listen to the negative inner voice anymore.
- Yara is skeptical but asks how to stop listening to the voice, to which Esther suggests the process of self-forgiveness.
- Esther explains that talking about her self-blame is a first step and that they can work on creating new, more positive narratives together.
- Esther encourages Yara to replace the critical inner voice with one of love and compassion towards herself.
- Yara experiences a fleeting moment of belief that everything might be okay, an unfamiliar feeling for her.
- Yara expresses a desire to change but hints at something she feels she needs to do first.