Chapter 44

Summary

• Yara visits Esther's office, which is on the seventh floor of an old brick building downtown.
• While driving to the office, Yara reflects on her past counseling experience and contemplates her readiness to open up to another person or herself.
• The waiting room at Esther's office is plain with a large poster detailing the seven chakras and brochures about alternative treatments.
• Esther, a middle-aged woman with a warm smile, greets Yara and invites her into the office, reminding Yara of her mother.
• Esther's office is serene with sunlight and a quote on the wall about spiritual beings having a human experience, which resonates with Yara.
• Yara engages in a deep conversation with Esther about the nature of human and spiritual experiences and intuition.
• Yara reveals her struggles with her identity and self-worth, discussing her troubled childhood, the loss of her job, and her family history.
• As Yara speaks to Esther about her past, she opens up about her mother's abusive relationship, her feelings of invisibility, and her efforts to break away from her oppressive family dynamic.
• Yara shares the impact of her mother's sudden death and her complex feelings of guilt, conflict, and sorrow.
• Esther offers empathy and suggests that Yara's feelings and behavioral patterns may be a result of complex trauma passed down through her family.
• The chapter delves into Yara's internal battles, her rejection of psychological medication, her feelings of being trapped in her own body, and her intense struggle to feel normal.
• Esther provides reassurance and reframes Yara's thought process by emphasizing the need for healing rather than fixing what is broken.
• The session ends with Esther offering guidance on beginning the healing process through body awareness and scheduling Yara for another session.
• Yara expresses gratitude as the chapter concludes with her feeling a sense of hope and resolve to heal.